ramblings of one who thinks too much

it is still not the end.

All we did today was set up.. External examiners were no show.

Man.. seriously.. the past couple of weeks feels like I’m slowly bleeding to death and there is nothing I can do to end my pain or quicken my death.

So the next couple of days would be spent waiting from 9am-5pm to see if we’re chosen for examining. Slow painful death indeed. And hopefully we can get our results on friday.

I made plans.. I made awesome plans to spend some quality time with my lovely and now I can see all hopes of executing the plans dwindling away.

Then there is the 8th of April (Design Showcase at Vivocity), before which I need to do more touch ups, help settle the class’ year book and other miscellaneous things.

This sucks. I am so sick and tired of this. End it already? Please?

I’ve put up with your bad behaviour for months now.

I thought you would have some decency to do something about it but clearly you don’t think our friendship, me, I am worth your time.

I did my best as a friend and I honoured you and our friendship. I cared.

You said you cared. You said I meant a lot to you. That I was special.. our friendship was special. Surely you haven’t forgotten. Or maybe you have chosen to.

Like her.. you decided to warp what we had because of public opinion. Social pressure.

I don’t care who said what.. The fact you chose to listen. The fact you chose not to speak to me, to sort things out is.. disappointing. I thought better of you. I really thought you were different. But you aren’t and the fact is you really don’t care that you aren’t.

The worst thing about this.. you knew you were going to disappoint me and you still chose to let it happen.

Thanks for making feel so fucking “important”.

your. eyes. light. yester-nights. no longer.