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Just as I thought it would be all over..

it is still not the end.

All we did today was set up.. External examiners were no show.

Man.. seriously.. the past couple of weeks feels like I’m slowly bleeding to death and there is nothing I can do to end my pain or quicken my death.

So the next couple of days would be spent waiting from 9am-5pm to see if we’re chosen for examining. Slow painful death indeed. And hopefully we can get our results on friday.

I made plans.. I made awesome plans to spend some quality time with my lovely and now I can see all hopes of executing the plans dwindling away.

Then there is the 8th of April (Design Showcase at Vivocity), before which I need to do more touch ups, help settle the class’ year book and other miscellaneous things.

This sucks. I am so sick and tired of this. End it already? Please?

IT IS OVER (almost)!

Well I have just wrapped up the in-school assessment for my final year project and all I have left is some paperwork. 

What a relief! It’s been a crazy roller coaster ride.

I really thank God for the favour He has showered me. I can definitely see His hand in every step of the way.

And I really appreciate all the help, encouragement and support everyone has given me during this period of time. It really helped push me along.

Now all that is left is the possibility I might have to do the presentation all over again. This time for the external examiners.

So it is time for touch ups and using the coming week to spruce up my presentation.

Can’t wait for the holidays to start officially!

Exactly 7 weekdays left.

Man I am really feeling it. The past couple of weeks have been really tough.

But today felt good, it rekindled the fighter in me.

The principal at RTC finally allowed me back to the school to take photos that are critical for my project. Without these photos, I have no proof I worked with the kids and definitely no evidence to support my claims and validate my project. So that is a relief. Thank God! It felt good working with the kids and really seeing the results from my findings.

And I managed to get a new shower curtain and a mug (finally) from IKEA. It feels good to have new things for a change.

Tomorrow I am going to a rapid prototyping company. Hopefully they can help me. It’s the last lap and I hope I don’t sink.

Not much time left and I really want this to work out.

I am trying my best

I really am but it doesn’t seem to be enough.

Time is running out but my progress is so slow. I need a miracle.

I know this is probably the result of me not hustling enough at the beginning but at the same time I really can’t take all the blame. I would have hustled if there was a clear direction to hustle towards.

I wish I have a second chance. Honestly, I’ve learnt quite a lot from all the obstacles I had to face. I know I’d do it better if I am given a chance to start over.

But at the moment I just have to give this my best shot.

And hopefully it would be enough. God willing.

when you’re unsure of the next step..

it takes you a god-awful time to get to work.

Doubt leads to fear which leads to procrastination.

I have no time for procrastination.

So I’m just gonna buckle up tight and set myself on this road-trip to success.

No buts, no hesitation.

And I am going to take the fastest route possible.

(Remember the fastest route might not be the shortest or the easiest..)

I would be a lot better off..

if I had started going back to AC to work on my FYP earlier..

There was so much more I could have done.. I guess I just have to work harder to make up for lost time. But I really don’t know how much I can achieve in this short amount of time and I really have to start progressing or I’d be in a lot of trouble. I need to focus on the end result.

It’s ironic how most of my learning and education is still taking place in AC even though I have graduated for 5 years..

While I feel so upset at the fact that I’ve been robbed of my education, I am extremely grateful I’ve met Mich and I really appreciate everything she’s teaching me now. I don’t think I’d give up this mentoring for anything.

16 weekdays to submission.

I am really feeling the squeeze. Soon it’d be time to work on long days and short nights.

because ACJC is always home.

Went back today for consultation with Mich Lim.

She graduated from my course in TP a few years back and now she’s teaching in ACJC. What are the odds? All I can say is that I am grateful and that God is watching over me.

It was nice working in the design studio. It is really conducive for work and I’d probably be going back often since I can get much needed help from Mich.

18 weekdays to go before submission.

inhale exhale.

So I got really upset at my mum on friday night cos she yelled at me over the phone for not being home yet. It had just turned midnight and I was only 15mins away from home.

After hardly speaking to each other the whole of saturday and the early part of today, she brought the matter up during lunch time, stating why she yelled at me.

On the drive back from sending my dad off at the airport, I told her why I was upset at her for yelling at me. Updated her on everything I was going through in school and how my lecturers have been kinda giving me hell.

She apologised and said she had no idea that I was under so much pressure. I think we have come to an understanding.

Well I must say I feel a lot better now since both my mum and sis have a better understanding of what I am facing in school. Hopefully they continue to give me the support and encouragement I need.

In a way, I can breathe just a little easier.

If only I could make a living from creating excuses.

I am rather effective in giving a good reason for everything.

People find hard to fault me even if they aren’t completely convince.

And I can give a thousand and one reasons to explain my faults and failures, mostly valid.

But I know.. they are just excuses.

I feel the need to put this out there so that I can stop shifting the blame on everyone besides myself.

I would love to harp on why I am so far behind in terms of my FYP when we supposedly had 8.5months to complete it.

But the fact is.. my biggest fault was not sticking to my guns.

When my lecturers said it was a bad idea, I should have just ignored it and stuck with it from the start. I should have been working on making it better (if not mind-blowing) and not finding plan B.

I should just grit teeth and hustle. I really should.

Essentially I only have 20 weekdays to go. So friends bear with me, I am probably gonna disappear for awhile.

there is a difference between being sensitive and being hard to please.

There is no perfect solution in this world and there is no one solution that can please everyone.

It does not mean I have not considered the “finer details” just because I haven’t provided the solution that pleases the entire universe.

Case Study:

I am including a dial that scrolls across a wheel to facilitate the selection of modes for the camera I am designing. Kind of like an old-school phone dial.

My lecturer insists that it is annoying for the user to have their hand blocking the screen when turning the dial. He proceeds to load his “Bruce Lee” game app on his iphone4 to illustrate the problem. Because he has huge grubby hands when he is playing the game, his thumbs block off most of the screen and he can’t enjoy the game scenery.

I tell him I understand his point but in my product, the user does not need to interact with the screen when scrolling the dial. The sections of the dial lights up to signal the change in modes, blocking the screen does not affect the experience. But he insist I am being a “low-level designer” because I am not paying attention to the “finer details”. He thinks it is better to have a scroll wheel that can be turned using one’s thumb. And I argue that it is unfair to cast that judgment based on my decision.

Firstly, my target user group have weak fine motor skills and lack dexterity in the movement of their thumbs. Secondly, blocking the screen really does not affect the user experience because the screen is not involved in the change of modes and when the screen is in used the user would not be interacting with the dial. So in my opinion, I am paying attention to the needs of my target-user.

Well, though clearly stumped by what I have to say to substantiate my decision, he still had to have the last say. “Well it seems like you have managed to make everything go the way you want by limiting yourself with the target-user you chose.” Essentially, just because I am able to argue why the different design elements in my product are the way they are (without much loop-holes), he decides to believe that I am “smoke-screening” my way through the project using personal opinions that I am passing off as research. He is also insisting that if he is not convinced, why would the external examiners be. I think, perhaps they would be convinced simply because they are not prejudiced against me. 

I know I have done my research, I have spoken to people who specialise in the needs of my target-user and I am hopefully coming up with something that would help make their lives a little better. I don’t know if this is the objective of a product designer as a profession but this is my objective as a product designer - just to make things a little better.

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