I find myself wondering that all the time.
People would say that your life belongs to you, so live for yourself.
If that is so, why do I have to care so much about what others think? Can’t I just live however I want to.
But no, I have to live my life in a way that is pleasing to my parents, even if it means I am constantly unhappy. Constantly unsatisfied. Constantly suppressed. Constantly empty.
And this is how my life will be so as long as I am under their roof.
I do not want to be ungrateful but I do not want this gratitude to become shackles.
I love my parents. But I love myself too..
So I am going to carve a place for myself in this world. My world.
and just to co-exist, you have to deny the core of your being.
I am making a choice to struggle.
It is hard. But I will persevere.
we won’t be stuck in this awful situation right now.
because everything else is bound to change.
This was wise words given to me tonight.
There is no point holding on blindly to things that are uncertain and make myself miserable. It’s better to let go and be happy.
There is only one thing that would never change in my life and that is God.
So I shall hold on to Him and whatever else that would be, would be.
it was almost like my light-bulb blew out and everything went dark.
I felt like I was just feeling my way around.
but tonight, the light came back on.
I see now. I will have things under-control once again.
It’s not going to be the same anymore.
I will work harder, faster, better, stronger.
It is all about being smart. It is about opportunity mongering.
And I will play my cards right.